I bought a book...

For the past two weeks, maybe less, I have been going to barnes & nobles to study for the series 7 exam by reading Series 7 for dummies. Today, I decided to buy it because it was wasting me a gas every day going to this place for 2 hours of the day, to have classical music and to be in the presence of other book lovers. I decided to buy it, but they don't know that I will be returning it in 14 days because I'm a broke dude.

After that, I had a nice luncheon with my good friend of mine at some mexican restaurant that I still can't even remember... and thank you for coming out and spending the time with me. I know...it must of been painful... but as a friend you listened and I just wanted to thank you for that. You start to realize as you get older who you're true friends (consultants) are... because at the end of the day, there are people who genuinely care for you, and there are those who are just there for the time being and then when all is said and done, they won't ever be the same around you.

I know the above may have sounded confusing, but only those who understand the concept, really understand it. So... after that, I went to Hicksville to chill with my buddy Dan and John. Good times watchign entourage and sparking up ideas on how I could become an actor... lmfao.
I love those guys, true friends.

Now I'm back home... thinking about my life up to date. Just rambling anything possible because at this point, I drank a couple of beers which I really needed. Tomorrow I'm goign to virginia, but quite honestly, I just don't feel like I'm in the greatest mood for it. I'm so negative right now as my friend said today..., it's this damn economy. It's everything that has happened to date. I feel like I don't have a father figure becuase he died at such a young age. Things would of been so much different...I miss you pops...

I'll be ok.

Pondering...

As I look back at what I have done in the past 2 months since graduation...It doesn't seem like much at all besides the fact that I went to San Diego for 2 weeks, which was great by the way...but other than that... I've been bumming around the house a lot.

I've picked up some new skills along the way, which are cooking and daydreaming. I know how to cook some tasty dumplings now. Not to mention, I perfected making some turkey melts on some whole grain wheat bread.

But other than that...there isn't much progress. I've been frustrated with the world, the whole economy puts a damper on my overall mood. Why is it that I spent 4 years in college and this is what I'm supposed to feel like? I feel like I wasted my time in college...and I possibly did. I feel weird going to family luncheons and dinners because the question always comes up... "what are you doing now?" and the abundance of sympathy and help is there, but growing up the way I did... it makes you feel even more useless.

So what exactly am I doing to change...do things to better myself...well I decided to grow UP. I made a schedule at which I'm following daily except today... I missed out on studying for 2 hours in Barnes & Nobles. It's such a great place to sit down and read. I definitly wanted to pick up reading as more of a habit so I decided to start studying for the Series 7 exam. Do I know for sure that I'm going to become a stockbroker... no, not yet. But at least, it's being productive...

Tired of writing, and i'm not much of a writer...so till next time.

My bad....

I know, I've been a bit neglectful on blogging. I've been a bit busy with the holidays, the winter session, the casino trips... but now I'm back in force and hopefully this will suffice.

As far as the Accutane treatment, they increased the dosage to 60mg, two 30mg/day. People mention to me that they see improvement, however I don't see much at all. I've been getting some serious dry skin on my shoulders and it sux.

I just started classes on Monday... after completing a winter course on Friday. I know what a weekend vacation, however I'm excited for BPL this semester. It's seems highly competitive and we will be marketing an interesting product, which is the digital camera.

I also started my first day at Fox News Channel. So far so good and I'm really excited to contribute to my department and hopefully make an impact through this lagging economy. I won't leave that internship without making a difference or starting some type of project. That is my goal.

As for that, I'll let you guys go. I'll try to post often and instead of it being just a journal, I'll comment on random stuff.