It was 11:50P.M. and my local blockbuster is 2 blocks away on Hillside Avenue. During the day, Hillside is zooming with cars. During night, it can be pretty quiet. I felt an urge to get the movie Pursuit of Happiness. I needed some type of motivation and I just felt some type of calling that I needed this movie tonight on DVD. I already have the movie on my computer, but I wanted it on DVD. I know, I'm a little wierd, but some people pray for motivation, I watch movies.
So, to the story that just agravates me every single time... I left my house, and I was running to blockbuster. As I'm running, there are 5 kid's(male) probably the age of 16-18 across the street parallel to me and I just knew it wasn't good from there. "Run Nigga, Run!... Let's get that Nigga... Get em' Get em'" I decided to not turn back and keep running and act normal ... which was running towards blockbuster to beat the clock.
I get to blockbuster and I look back. No one there. Had a feeling it was only done for a scare this is common as a joke. I look for 10 minutes and even ask the lady if she had a copy. She found one on the system and helped look for it, but it was not where it was supposed to be. 1 copy only too. I looked for another 5 minutes... nothing there.... I went up and down the aisles of movie listed P & H, checking to see if they were there. I said to myself, if I find this 1 copy, it must mean something... I looked for another minute going one by one and finally it caught my eye. The 1 copy! I brought it with high spirits and left the store.
Now, two blocks from home... was I to run? I decided to walk. It's midnight now. I start walking and now one block away from my house, 4 kids pop out of nowhere within eye sight, yet since I was in the middle of the block, there was no where to turn. I kept walking as normal and they all gathered around and looked as I was walking closer... and closer. My adrenaline rushing, my fists clenched inside my pockets, heart pounding as it used to pound when I was in High School. Then suddenly, they start filming one of their friends dancing as they formed a circle when I was right next to them and I inched towards the street to avoid the film, yet 2 of the kids laughing on the left spread out to where I couldn't walk around them. As I walked through, I felt they formed the circle to jump me... The one guy in the middle dancing, and the one towards the right walked towards me and had no expression of laughter but eyed me down. I walked through it and I looked back as the filmer pointed the phone towards me and he quickly turned away as I kept walking.
This wasn't the first time that I was "scared" for my life. I hate my neighborhood and I only want to experience the finer things in life because the life of living where I am just is and never really was safe. I'm glad I got my movie. It might even be a little wierd, but I workout because I just feel like I have to in order to survive if it ever come to that point. The point is, each day I may bitch and moan about the grades, the interviews, the money, but in the end my main goal is always the same. I want a better life, not only for I but for my mom. If my father had tried, I mind as well die trying as well if that's the farthest that will ever occur. Currently, my task is to win first place in this competition to create a business plan, it turns out this past weekend after doing several extensive researches, the idea has been taken, but this time.... I won't stop just because there's one out there. I gave up my last idea because my friends doubted me, but this time I won't stop and well... let's see what happens.
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Were they racists? Was you the only Asian guy during the incident?
Take care, be careful, and be safe.
Also, do not use hatred to retaliate hatred. That does not end the cycle, and it might leads to other people become the target. It is also not wise, because as of the current political situation, the odds are not favorable (I did not say this or anything at all, but you know what that means). One should do things the politically correct way (thus can not be accuse for any fault), and also should not act on emotion. Act rationally, not emotionally.
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